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WARNING: This is going to be a personal vent of a journal entry. I don't recommend reading further if you have issue with people talking about ~*~FEELINGS~*~.
Still here? Okay. Here it goes.
I haven't done more than a scribble here or a doodle there in several months. The commission I was working on has gone stagnant (communication has fallen through, not sure what happened other than maybe the commissioner finally got fed up with me).
I don't feel like I have anything to offer any more and it's sort of devastating. Every time I pick up my stylus I just sort of scratch away and nothing interesting comes out, I have no ideas for artwork. Everything I try is just a repeat of something I've done before. My creative energy is just gone and I'm not sure how to get it back, if I even can.
I mean, I was never the most creative of artists. I didn't come up with anything special, I mostly just drew characters from video games. I rarely ever even told a story with my pictures, they're just portraits. Re-renderings in 2d.
People have offered advice, and I know comparing myself to other artists probably isn't going to help anything (including my ambition) but seriously - maybe I'm not meant to, or don't have The Stuff required to be an Artist. I see other people put out artwork constantly or at least on a consistent basis and I just don't know where they find the energy, time and drive to do it. Hell, even before I got a job I wasn't drawing as much as I used to when I was younger.
Maybe there's just no more art left in me.
Still here? Okay. Here it goes.
I haven't done more than a scribble here or a doodle there in several months. The commission I was working on has gone stagnant (communication has fallen through, not sure what happened other than maybe the commissioner finally got fed up with me).
I don't feel like I have anything to offer any more and it's sort of devastating. Every time I pick up my stylus I just sort of scratch away and nothing interesting comes out, I have no ideas for artwork. Everything I try is just a repeat of something I've done before. My creative energy is just gone and I'm not sure how to get it back, if I even can.
I mean, I was never the most creative of artists. I didn't come up with anything special, I mostly just drew characters from video games. I rarely ever even told a story with my pictures, they're just portraits. Re-renderings in 2d.
People have offered advice, and I know comparing myself to other artists probably isn't going to help anything (including my ambition) but seriously - maybe I'm not meant to, or don't have The Stuff required to be an Artist. I see other people put out artwork constantly or at least on a consistent basis and I just don't know where they find the energy, time and drive to do it. Hell, even before I got a job I wasn't drawing as much as I used to when I was younger.
Maybe there's just no more art left in me.
Livestreaming
LOOK OUT I AM LIVESTREAMING AGAIN Here is the link: http://www.livestream.com/jmkdrawspam
Livestreaming Alert
I'll be streaming this afternoon around 2 PM EST! Tune in then to watch me derp with arts. ♥
http://www.livestream.com/jmkdrawspam
YET ANOTHER LIVESTREAM
Starting now, starting RANDOMLY, holy god I have no schedules
http://www.livestream.com/jmkdrawspam
JOIN IN. CHAT. LET ME KNOW YOU LOVE ME.
HEY Y'ALL
It was asked of me a day or so ago if I would be able to do a livestream tutorial on how I paint/colour my artwork.
If there are people interested please let me know in a comment and help me figure out when the best time for something like this would be, so interested parties can attend and ask questions and whatnot. Thanks!
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Hey Jess... feeling any better?